Handing over the reins of ReDead

[mikeynshelby]

Hello, as the creator of Smod: Redead. I've become badly addicted to drugs... I wanted to request that who so ever wants to take control of my mod may do so. Just PM me and tell me what your plans are for it. I really wanted to give it to Veteran Gamer and let him use what ever he wanted from it.

I'm going to have to re-upload it and If someone wants they can use my mod as a template and make your own zombie mod.

But reply asap to let me know.

[veteran_gamer]

Mikey, what happened? I'm sad to read this. But it's important if you are trying to leave shit, that you keep this in mind.

you'll get through it first of all brother, and it wont be quick, it'll take a week or two before you even begin to feel normal again. listen to me, its very important...

You're going to feel like you cant achieve pleasure for a while, in the things you normally do, regular activities, this is because your serotonin & dopamine levels have been depleted with regular drug use, whether its meth, heroin, adderall, oxys, cocaine/crack, x, or otherwise.

youre gonna feel like you need to get high in order to feel normal, or to be able to function. Hang in there, and take a break.

don't try to do your regular hobbies or activities during your recovery, it will only make you frustrated, and feel like you need to get high to enjoy or perform regularly.

Watch movies, -Rest-, take it easy, don't do anything you don't feel like doing, for a week or however long it may take to get the -physical- effect of withdrawals out of your body.

after a while, you'll start to feel better, once you shake off the anxiousness, its important your loved ones/girlfriend understand this as well, and support you, giving you your space, and understanding any aggressive behavior that may come from interacting with you.

once the toughest part is gone, you'll begin to miss your old ways, and -Slowly- get back into them.

I've dealt with addiction in family and friends before, more than you think, and I've seen this a lot, aside from being a stoner and maybe sniffing a few rails here and there, i cant say i know what you're going through, but read my words, and you can see i understand what you're going through.

-relapse is part of recovery- No, you'll be done when you're ready to be done Mikey. If you DO relapse, remember to not go back down the road of an endless binge. Let it happen that one time, then move on.

My heart goes out to you, and my respect for being so honest.

God bless you Mikey, take care, and I'm here if you ever need someone to communicate with

[e-mail] - msngr

please take care of yourself, you're young, which means you can move on from this

you cant teach an old dog new tricks, and a young dog (like you!) can learn and adapt to new surroundings and lifestyles in the many, many years you have ahead of you.

I dont mean to sound like a preacher here, I'm truly and genuinely just trying to help you in any form that i can, which is my personal experience with this fucking problem that makes me want to execute dope dealers.

god bless you Mikey. you'll be fine, i promise

[mikeynshelby]

Thanks vet. You inspired me. My Faince is trying her hardest.. but I just keep taking my frustation out on her. I have windows vista ultimate and each time i run msn it crashes. So can you get on aim? - mikeydoom1988

[Blubbles]

You have my honest prayers and support mikey..

You WILL get through this I know you will!

[veteran_gamer]

hey mikjey, its 3am, i fell saleep, something told me to check on ya, listen, im gonan download aol im when i wake up so we can talk

and just remmeber, at the end of the day, to tell her how much you love her and how much she means to you, and to stick with you, its not you thats being that wayh to her, itis an outside element that has a strong hold of you, ill ta lk to you more later

hang in there till we talk

and dont forget to thank her for her efforts talk to you soong good night

[mikeynshelby]

Okay, well I'm awake now, exhausted cause I skipped my usual method of getting high before going to sleep. I tossed an turned for hours. =/ Shelby, my fiance tried to help. But who so ever want to talk to me can. my msn is [e-mail] and my aim is mikeyDOOM1988


I'm awake now.. But I still feel like I'm a sleep.

[kenneth]

I can't say much of anything because I have no experience with drugs myself other than.. tobacco and pot which I never did again since. But I can give you my full support, prayers, and thoughts. If i recall your addiction was epinephrine, acetaminophen, and the like. I don't know on a personal level but pain pills and even epinephrine has effect a major person I love hold dear. My own father. So just know as a third party, I give you my support, brotherly love, and prayers. I've seen first hand what how this stuff can fuck a person up on a near catastrophic level. And I've even lost my aunt to alchoholism and my older brother is following as similar path.. So after that I just can't help myself doing this sort of thing when I see stuff like this. I feel like I'm jumping on a bandwagon here but it's human nature to care for someone and worry about them even if their some stranger over the internet. Hang in there man. Veteran was absolutely right. It's tough but it's very possible. You'll prevail and hold through I know it. I almost feel bad for not being able to say or do much more.

I can't say much more than that.

[mikeynshelby]

Well I'm trying to quit. It's not going so well right now. =_=

I woke up and I'm use to getting high... or smoking a cigg.. And I did neither.. So I was grumpy all day..

Then I started working a little on Operation: Black Eagle. Something I'm not getting to explaining what it is.

Let's just say it's like Rainbow Six. Using Smod: Tactical 5.56.

Now no more info, don't ask. I'll face palm you.

Seriously, I'm not in the mood. I almost erased Redead completely.

Cause I got so pissed off.

I think I need someone to take it before it's gone forever.

[wells119]

Want me to find maps to node? It would be my pleasure.

[mikeynshelby]

Umm sure if you want to. I'd love that. I just woke up. Cause I did'nt go to sleep til 4:30 am.. I sat starring at the wall and thinking about my fiance while she slept. I would love if you noded some maps.

[wells119]

i can't node but i can find maps to node, maybe khorn3 could node em, or maybe some one else. vet you think you could. i could noded with the map add generator.

[mikeynshelby]

Well that'd be cool.

[wells119]

also i'm writing a zombie book, it has around 40 pages. i'll give links for the maps if anybody wants to node tell me. i could also find skins for you. also it sucks you start to quit the time pinapple express came out.

[mikeynshelby]

time pinapple express? I'll node them.. link me to em?

[wells119]

www.fpsbanana.com/maps/26465 heres a good one its an alley map so no escape from zombies, www.fpsbanana.com/maps/6949 a cool semi open map
www.fpsbanana.com/maps/32731 just read the name
www.fpsbanana.com/maps/55435 looks like a huge map with lots of fun game play,
www.fpsbanana.com/maps/18280 a really cool looking map would be fun with zombies

if you want more just tell me. oh yeah heres an idea try noding maps from zps, or zm.

[mikeynshelby]

Thank you. =D I'm noding some now.

[wells119]

your welcome, i guess i'll give you some more tomorrow , btw my favorite is the alley

[ClaneLord]

I hope you will get better=) if you need guns then you can use our weapons from "Fan Tweaks" and we could make more i think if you need better guns.

[mikeynshelby]

Hah. So do I. I hate the guns I have now. =/

[wells119]

theres an re4 pack in smod tactical forums, also i like your weapons in the fan tweak

[mikeynshelby]

Thanks I already have it xD

But thanks for keeping me busy while I quit my horrible habits. =3

[ClaneLord]

Hm... i think this map will be good for mod www.fpsbanana.com/maps/26497
=)Good luck if you will try make nodes and mapadds.

[wells119]

i think khorn3 (or some one) noded it before there a thread on smod tactical forum

[mikeynshelby]

Yeah I have the nodes for it already. =P

[wells119]

cool that would be awesome with zombies! since i have nothing to do today i might as well get you some maps

[mikeynshelby]

Redead's Dead.

[wells119]

what...NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, its a shame mikey,

[mikeynshelby]

Not really. Everyone likes Outbreak better. So go download that.

[wells119]

i like redead, i like it lot maybe you should combine your maps with outbreak

[mikeynshelby]

How?